Human Nature- Ironical?

So, for the last few days, some us have been utterly transfixed by the realgist blog. Personally, ,I think it has been one of those experiments that expose the contradicting faces of human nature..Most of the stuff on there was vile, people's parents were even brought into it..The characters were taken apart and discredited with every line the "editors" spun.On the part of the more than willing audience, we didn't do anything to dis-popularise the site. Even those shouting "foul" "foul" "foul" have to admit that they logged onto that site more than once. Surely, if we really belong on the moral high-ground that we steadfastlly claim to stand one..We'd have only spared one peek..I think sometimes there are discrepancies between who we really are and who we actually think we are! Comment after comment slandered and cursed the unadmittedly devious writers but surely most of us have to take responsibility for the part we played in making the site the raving success that it was..

Bad news travels fast..Bad Gossip travels even faster..and the worst thing about it is..We all love it..As long as it has nothing to do with us..

I didn't agree with the concept of the blog but I was too human to leave a chastising message- After all, I had to ponder the indiscretion of my fingers who frequently crept back to the site to read the latest update.

The internet can be an ugly place..Bad gossip can be very entertaining.as long as it doesn't happen to YOU..!

Monday Blues..

After a weekend of serenading, imagine my irritation at having to spend the whole day in an Options pricing class..I wish the lecturer was a tad bit interesting..I just hope I learnt enough to pull off that I attended the course..Good news- Day one is over. Bad news- Three more days to go..

Also found out that there's a Nigerian buka-on -wheels @ Liverpool Street. I had J-rice,fish, plantain and beef..(weird but true). All of this cost me 5 quid..Not bad I must admit..But considering that carbs are bad for you..I doubt If I'm going to be one of her loyal customers..So I'm standing in the queue and a blonde petite girl walks up to Madam Buka and asks her if she sells Thai food? I'm like "try reading the signs"..I guess some people just think that anything post-English pretty much tastes the same..The woman should have sold her some hot efo and ewedu plus amala..And I'm sure she'll never forget the difference..

Anyway, for a second today..I don't think I was very Bullish on Life but all it took was a quick reminder and I'm back on track..

I'm off to a Thai restaurant..I hope don't get served efo when I sit down to dine.lol

RBOARF.......

The weirdest things happen to the simplest people, or so I like to think..
The last two weeks have been mad in so many ways, so I thank you for building this bridge
SA really isn't all that far..
So I guess I'l be seeing you soon..lol
There's probably so much I'd love to write
But for the sake of simplicity I'll say
Thanks for coming the extra mile(or 3000 miles as the case may be)
Fly Safe...

BOL...

So I've abandoned my blog as I do..now and again..What can I say? I've been busy..
Moving on, I'm back at work and I'm ready to take the bull by the horns..
Every now and again, we all resort to making resolutions which we often do not stick to.
Well, this time I've decided to adhere to the rather abridged resolutions I've now set for myself.
As with most of these things, you need to work towards a goal..and therefore need to define what success will mean in that space..

Another year is coming to an end.Where on earth is time flying to?
Last time I checked I was a toddler..lol
I'm bullish on Life and Love and all the Little things that we all take for granted.
God's an artist, so I just love to watch him painting the masterpiece that is my life.

Thats the sole factor that gives method to m madness..

Pre-birthdayocratic yarns

It's my birthday tomorrow..Try as I may, I can never take the onslaught of this day unseriously enough..I'm always expectant..After all, God decided on that day xxxxx years ago, life as I knew it would change..So I celebrate in the knowledge that He has kept me through another year, filling me with purpose.August is an amazing month to be born in, and you just have to be one of us to understand..

My yardstick for success and happiness is obviously very different from the next mans' but I thank God because he always shows Grace and comes through for me.Funny though that I still remember my tenth birthday with so much clarity.It's intriguing to think about the concept of time and how we can't do anything to slow or quicken its pace..The day will tick away regardless of your mood..In a way, knowing this is almost soothing in itself...One hour will always be sixty minutes which will always be sixty seconds..

Life isn't that consistent..In fact, we've always heard that the only thing constant in life is change.So sometimes I like to focus and enjoy who I am today, harbouring at the back of mind that this will truly affect what I am tomorrow.How? I might not know. But lets just say a dog will never give birth to cats..

Thing is some people think they can only trust themselves..I say you can only trust God because when push comes to shove..even you can disappoint "you"..

Another birthday is going to come and go..I have no idea where I'll be this time next year..All I know is that regret-free, I'll look back and smile..because everyday was part if the process..

Friends come, friends go..Hearts break and mend again..the clock ticks steadfastly away..and Ify will continue to surprise herself and those who care to indulge..

Random- it ain't all bad...

Life has a way of throwing things at you...thats why we have to remain hooked to God...Sometimes, when I get a rather pleasant surprise..I can't help but smile..God is Good..

Random happenings aren't always so bad...You just have to keep your head up..otherwise you might miss the moment when that rather random stranger might be looking your way...

Here's to Random happenings and Random moments shared in the most Random of places..

You're Perfect...Almost...lol

Act One, Scene Two

Its been almost two months since I hung up my corporate suit..
Today will be my last day off..
The summer is officially over
Monday will mark the beginning of a new era..
All I ask is God's Grace..
With him looking down on me..
World domination is imminent..

Ermmmm..??

It just started raining cats and dogs!
Guess I spoke too soon :-(

Encore

Yay......

The summer's back..!!

My tan was beginning to fade out,

Out to get a top-up :-)

Postcript

I guess Romance is not dead after all...How would else would you describe his understate gesture to brace the cold just because she couldn't be warm???

C'est tres interessant...(Pardon my French)

Who moved my Cheese?

As another summer draws to a close, I can't help but wonder what this years' souveneirs will be..I've had countless conversations along the lines of "Do you remember the summer when we did...or when they..or when we went.."These precious keepsakes are undoubtedly as important as the sunshine itself.Admittedly, these welcome souveneirs are decreasing at an alarming rate..I'm sure not looking forward to the phase when one summer is just like another..Euwww..sends shivers down by spine just to think about it..

In all fairness, this summer, albeit in a different way, has been very important in its own way..So I suspect when I flip back the history books, this summer will definitely stand its ground in the charts..2002 has probably been the most memorable summer for me, till date ;-)

Anyway, as I look into the not too distant future, I admit that I will have to fight to make my summers count...Trips abroad, sightseeing on London tour buses..whatever..I just won't let this inertia gripping environment take me down with it..You know?

I just don't understand folks that don't travel and don't like Music..(As I speak I'm watching Lick classics on MTV base...some of the songs are taking me back a few summers..Music happens to provide some of the best souvenirs of summers well spent)..


Isn't it weird how some people just vanish from your life? Even weirder how sometimes we don't even notice that these people have gone down under until their name comes up in conversation randomly..Just bizarre how one era ends and another one begins and we just don't know..Can you ascertain the exact moment when you fell in love with Mr or Ms X? Looking back, can you tell when you fell out of love with your ex? Hmm, obviously assuming that you've moved on.Some people still reside in the past..

Life just seems to move on with or without our permission..Summers come and go..Years come and go..Partners come and go as do Friends...All we can do is seize and enjoy the moments so we can look back and smile..On this journey called life, all we can do is make sure we keep on top of the game..Prob a bit calculating..but I sure hope I outgrow more people than outgrow me..It's almost a race..But as long as you know God has your back..you don't have to worry..The race is not always to the swift..

Change is the only element thats constant..so we have to embrace it..Building castles one brick at a time..

Life's what we make of it...It's a beautiful thing...

M&M's

So,half way through a purely rhetorical conversation about men, my Cameroonian friend(who shall remain nameless) comments that she doesn't understand why Nigerians are so obsessed about Money an Marriage(in that order)..This made me laugh, although I couldn't help thinking that there was some truth to the rather random statement!

Apparently, she does not understand why Nigerian men are always full of giant ideas. They have huge ideas and think they can go from paupers to princes in one swift move.Before I had the chance to fully rumminate these comments, she admitted that she did want to move back home- to a big house with a swimming pool..Hmm, so I thought, so maybe its not only the Nigerians who dream big?

Whats a man or woman for that matter without dreams? hopes? etcetera, etcetera....But my question is "When can you identify a dreamer as just that, and nothing more" 32? 35? 38? At what age can you look at a man and say to him..wake up and get a job, you're never going to be president!Well, at least not if you carry on down this path...Most women like security so admittedly, its quite bizarre to handle a 32 year old with zero track record but a head full of lofty ideas.You've never had a job, you didn't do well at school, ok you talk the talk, but when do you start walking the walk...??

In the perfect world, a man with dreams would be perfect companion because every great idea started from a simple dream.But who really wants to get stuffed with a truck full of dreams when there are bills to be paid.?

Anyway, on to this issue of the M&M's..Marriage and Money...
Actually, I'm on the phone with Goose..I'll finish it later!

.............

A certain someone I know signs their e-mails as follows:

"It may take you forever to arrive at the place you long to get to, but no one will remember that once you do".

For some bizarre reason, everything time I receive an e-mail from him, I linger a little while on this line, even though I've seen it quite a few times..

She smiles...

Ardent..

Ok.Now give me the base line..
It's a Hard Knock Life for us..lol
Is the glass half full or half empty?
Well, most of us..In my opinion will live our lives out depending on which side of the fence we belong to..
Some people say Mr. Romance is dead...I prefer to think that he's sleeping.
It all depends really..
Take L.A for example..He thinks I'm a difficult, stress-full, emotionally high maintenance sister..and whereas I don't have sufficient data points to prove him utterly wrong..I have evidence that suggests that with the right matrix, I can be part of a composite structure that is both formidable and weather resistant...lol(winking again).

I look at successful people who once upon a time seemed to be no good..and my conclusion still hovers around the fact that you still need to know what side of the fence you belong to..Confidence,self-belief and a strong mind-set you can't buy from Portobello market..Sometimes, I ask myself "Ifeanyichukwu, what is your story??" If one does not have one's story straight in one's head..one is left open for alien infections of all sorts..So when that fine looking brother with the "S" on his chest tells me he thinks I should be more laid back..I'll laugh politely and focus on my story...

Thing is though..some us balance unevenly on the fine line that is called sanity..So it helps to have at least one other person that buys into your story...Now is when the complications mount up..The variables that exist make the equations complex.Great, when you have your family on your side, it sure does make life easier..But somehow, they have to buy your story..so maybe in as much as they count the most...on some angles, you can equate them = negligible(lol, let my mother read that)..

So we spend most our lives trying to balance the following equation

Love+ Value system = Partner + Soul mate

If any one of these blocks are skewed, the equation shifts out of balance..

So, in typical human style...we (ignorantly) look for the balanced(finished) equation..Only to stop and think..Hold on a second..Acid + Alkali= Salt and Water..However,this equation does not start out balanced..You start off with too little salt and gradually, the equation shifts to the right until we achieve the balanced state...And most of all, for all this to happen "Energy(Work)" has to be applied..If energy is not applied, the acid and alkali remain exactly as they are..

In true twenty-first century style, we all want "everything" and we want it now..!!For two individuals to undergo a true merger(and not an acquisition), "Work" needs to be done on both sides..Arguably, sometimes, the "energy" required for some mergers make the whole effort unfeasible and a waste of time..I guess that's where due diligence comes in..Not forgetting the basics, God and common sense..

Everything we have, we will have to work for..Easy come,easy go..That applies to Everything..

So we decide,will it be easier to empty out the rest of the glass or do we just put the work in and fill up the already half-filled glass..

IA.

12/08/06

Just spent the week away from London..
Feel so much better now..
So much so that I'm ready to re-enter my world now..
Still something missing though..
Still can't place my finger on it.

I'm 24 in two weeks.
Still don't feel a day over 19..lol
Next stop..25...
Hmm, I'm quietly excited..
Soon...The aunts and uncles are going to start asking for my other half.
I have more than a dozen distasteful retorts for any mis-probing questions..

Do they think I'm sitting with my hands crossed doing nothing?
Actually, thats exactly what I'm doing..lol
After all,he needs to get his head straight and convince me..(she winks)
No fun when it's the other way round..
Go figure..!

Anyway, new year, new job..
Seems like a good time to stuff in some resolutions..
Watch This Space..

Dreams come True

So, Its the hottest summer I've ever seen in my nine years of steadfastly living in London..And I've been off work for about a month now, with roughly another month to go..

I quit GS and decided it was time to test the waters..What can I say? I'm truly blessed and I'm starting with Macquarie in August. Didn't have a job when I left GS but I know the God that I serve- I wouldn't/couldn't be left hanging..

So now- back to the summer..Spent some of last week @ the Big apple...did some shopping, sightseeing et al and came back.

Now, I discover that I'm a bit of a workaholic- I miss being at work.Most of my friends are at work-Thank God for Toby Martins, she's been my comrade so far..and I couldn't have asked for better really..

So, today..I'm sitting at home, with absolutely nothing to do.I'm sure I have a to-do list lying around somewhere but I'm in a sorry state of inertia..and it's so HOT!!

Oh yes and I lost my phone AND all my contacts so reaching out is that much more difficult..I hear you ask: What do you want to tonight? All I can say is: " I NEED someone to creatively take me on a date.." Dinner and a movie will not cut it today..Why are guys these days so conventional? What happened to the guys who used to be interesting and creative? Shoot! Maybe it's me? Have I morphed into this un-pleasable being? I doubt it? But I just have so many questions unanswered. The summer is perfect! I have time off work! In fact, I'm being paid to have time off work..and no its not a holiday..Some people would say I have it all..On second thoughts, I think I do..I Thank God for the amazing opportuntity he has given me..

I think I'm going to go for a swim..

Ok, I'm going home now.
Its 00.03 am. I should not be at work!
Good Night!
Muah.................x

God grant me the Serenity
Grant Bxxo the Serenity too
Work without sleep CANNOT be easy

Still..

So I haven't written a while. So much to say, so little time to say it. I've missed writing my thoughts down on paper(virtual as it may be).

Life has a way of throwing the weirdest things at you.How can anybody say there's no God?? We live and we learn and we continue to ask for Grace..

Nobody knows how long we're here to stay. But we have no choice but to life to the fullest.

Life is a hustle. You need God on your side

Place Neuve

So, I've been away for ever so long
Quiet but far from silent
Thoughts constantly racing through my head
Ideas not stopping to take in air
Yes, its 2006 and I'm going to be 24 this year
For once in my life I'm stable
Man trouble , a thing of the past
Yes, they come and go
But they need to come and go..
I never forget though..
After all a person is the sum total of her memories..
But I'm loving the peace in my heart, the tranquillity of my Spirit
I feel..I feel..almost like God is preparing for something unique
I smell it in the air..feel it in my bones.
But remain absolutely clueless as to what it is..
But when it does come, whatever "it" is..It won't be a second late..
And I'll be ready..after all God is on the throne..