Sometimes, I really think I've lost it.
Can't get to grips with the fluctuations I see in my mind's eye
Being volatile can certainly lead to one's undoing
Painting absurd pictures that can easily be misconstrued
Why does this palette constantly paint pictures that haunt the ones that mean the most
I AM TIRED..
Almost bewildering
Confusing.even for me
How much more for another.
JE SUIS TRES FATIGUE
There has to be method to my madness
Timing........
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
In the beginning..
Talk about mega drama. The last week has been quite dramatic and I can truly say I've learnt quite a bit about myself and human beings in general. Somebody told me quite recently that I don't listen and I'm glad I listened long enough to hear him say that. I should learn to listen more often. One of my favourite coined up sayings goes as thus: "God's an Artist and our lives are his masterpieces". I quite often distrust people for the simple reason that human beings don't understand their personalities and thresholds as well as they think they do. But recent events have got me thinking? Does this really matter? Isn't that part of the HUGE learning curve?
Anyway, nobody knows when the next rate-determining step will only be round the corner. That's why I really can't believe human being can live their lives without God. I have so many issues and I'm so far from perfect but at least I have a benchmark and I have methods of measuring success-all thanks to the Bible. I even get clues when something strange is round the corner and really God's the only one who has no downsides!
I also got given an amazing gift this weekend-cover to cover chronological journey Bible guide. Only on day one and already I'm like WOW! The description of Eden is so poignant and just breathtaking. It's what all human beings spend their lives looking for. A land flowing with milk and honey, dominion over everything and man and woman existing in TOTAL harmony. The word "Adam" is derived from "adama"-the Hebrew feminine noun meaning "earth". So, adam was upgraded from earth-given perfection-and everything was handed to him on a silver spoon! And then, they had to go and mess everything up. But hang on second, before judgement is passed on so hastily-the human being of these times would have done even worse. How often do you come across somebody who is truly CONTENT? Someone who looks at where they are and is truly happy for today without having to source happiness from the prospects of tomorrow? I haven't met that many people. There's a thin line between ambition and discontent. What fuels our ambitions? The prospect of a better life? The oasis in the desert? We strive in our search for the optimum lifestyle, job, partner but keep on shifting the bars each time. Arguably, this is not necessarily a bad thing but one has to know where to draw the balance. How can one live life always forfeiting today for the sake of tomorrow-especially since nobody knows how long they have on this earth? Personally, I dare not criticize anybody on this subject because I don't think I've learnt how to draw the balance myself. Timing and Balance-I keep on coming back to these because that's what most things boil down to
On the issue of one's partner-I love how the Bible describes creation and how God asked man to "name" all the animals and all that he had created. Talk about empowerment! Adam even named "Eve". When you think about the importance the Bible places on names-one can only imagine the privilege given to man upon creation. The creation story is particularly important to me because that's the benchmark for perfection-God restores these privileges to us once we accept Jesus as our Lord! Today- misplaced priorities mean that roles and responsibilities have been confused and the lines have been blurred. I laugh when women declare their "independence" and then complain that men don't open doors! Marriage is increasingly becoming a washed out institution because people are going against the grain and trying to reorganise the order that was installed all those centuries ago. Its a man's job to be the HEAD of the family. He is the God-given leader and as such the final decisions rest with him. Like any CEO of a company, he naturally needs to know how to delegate and will obviously appreciate initiative from those he presides over. Thankfully, he has been built for this and needs to tap into the natural power available for the success of his organisation(family).Fortunately, the Bible doesn't give women an excuse to abscond as Proverbs 31 describes the perfect woman as one that works hard and supports her guy in every way. Being human, I've applied my own rationale to this.lol.When I meet a guy that talks about 50:50, I'm truly perplexed-Hard work is not and will never be a problem for me but I shudder to think about the day when the CEO of Microsoft decides to relegate half of his responsiblity.To me, a guy is RESPONSIBLE for the family. FULL STOP. No CEO does all the work himself-but should something go horribly wrong- he shoulders the responsibily. He is the face of the company and its his job to make sure that the shareholders are happy. Now when you have a company where everyone wants to be the CEO-surely one can see how the recipe for disaster starts to boil up. Being human and having inherited adam and eve's blood- many people have developed their own twists on the above-So you have men behaving recklessly and without respect because they are men-and woman thinking they can have the final say because they pay the bills. Thankfully,the Bible again points at Jesus as the perfect Leader who led by service. Privileges and responsibilities go hand in hand..
In my rather short time on this earth-I don't pretend to have the answers, all I can say is that I have a Manual. And I'll follow it blindly-because all the answers to "Who am I?" are in there. I'm an ambitious young girl-I want the best that life has to give and will strive endlessly to be the best. But I'm also female and thankfully can and will choose carefully who my lifelong CEO will be. God will have to govern that decision cos the effects are irreversible. However, I also pray that I respect his rights as a leader and I help make the decision making process that much easier. Probably won't be easy and I don't expect the ride to start off smoothly-but like any merger; companies ,human beings, personalities, composites, etc-One can anticipate problems and will have to work hard to extract synergies and achieve the pre-envisioned "value add" that made the whole process appear worthwhile in the first place. People can learn a lot from analysing how and what makes a company run. We are like individual companies, have our own tenets and procedures. Merging with someone else which often is more like an acquisition instead of a "true merger" can often be complex and should not be taken lightly. Investment bankers work all night trying to analyse if companies will be a true fit. Surely, marriage requires even more attention. Perhaps, we all have another reason to enrol on that MBA?
Anyway, nobody knows when the next rate-determining step will only be round the corner. That's why I really can't believe human being can live their lives without God. I have so many issues and I'm so far from perfect but at least I have a benchmark and I have methods of measuring success-all thanks to the Bible. I even get clues when something strange is round the corner and really God's the only one who has no downsides!
I also got given an amazing gift this weekend-cover to cover chronological journey Bible guide. Only on day one and already I'm like WOW! The description of Eden is so poignant and just breathtaking. It's what all human beings spend their lives looking for. A land flowing with milk and honey, dominion over everything and man and woman existing in TOTAL harmony. The word "Adam" is derived from "adama"-the Hebrew feminine noun meaning "earth". So, adam was upgraded from earth-given perfection-and everything was handed to him on a silver spoon! And then, they had to go and mess everything up. But hang on second, before judgement is passed on so hastily-the human being of these times would have done even worse. How often do you come across somebody who is truly CONTENT? Someone who looks at where they are and is truly happy for today without having to source happiness from the prospects of tomorrow? I haven't met that many people. There's a thin line between ambition and discontent. What fuels our ambitions? The prospect of a better life? The oasis in the desert? We strive in our search for the optimum lifestyle, job, partner but keep on shifting the bars each time. Arguably, this is not necessarily a bad thing but one has to know where to draw the balance. How can one live life always forfeiting today for the sake of tomorrow-especially since nobody knows how long they have on this earth? Personally, I dare not criticize anybody on this subject because I don't think I've learnt how to draw the balance myself. Timing and Balance-I keep on coming back to these because that's what most things boil down to
On the issue of one's partner-I love how the Bible describes creation and how God asked man to "name" all the animals and all that he had created. Talk about empowerment! Adam even named "Eve". When you think about the importance the Bible places on names-one can only imagine the privilege given to man upon creation. The creation story is particularly important to me because that's the benchmark for perfection-God restores these privileges to us once we accept Jesus as our Lord! Today- misplaced priorities mean that roles and responsibilities have been confused and the lines have been blurred. I laugh when women declare their "independence" and then complain that men don't open doors! Marriage is increasingly becoming a washed out institution because people are going against the grain and trying to reorganise the order that was installed all those centuries ago. Its a man's job to be the HEAD of the family. He is the God-given leader and as such the final decisions rest with him. Like any CEO of a company, he naturally needs to know how to delegate and will obviously appreciate initiative from those he presides over. Thankfully, he has been built for this and needs to tap into the natural power available for the success of his organisation(family).Fortunately, the Bible doesn't give women an excuse to abscond as Proverbs 31 describes the perfect woman as one that works hard and supports her guy in every way. Being human, I've applied my own rationale to this.lol.When I meet a guy that talks about 50:50, I'm truly perplexed-Hard work is not and will never be a problem for me but I shudder to think about the day when the CEO of Microsoft decides to relegate half of his responsiblity.To me, a guy is RESPONSIBLE for the family. FULL STOP. No CEO does all the work himself-but should something go horribly wrong- he shoulders the responsibily. He is the face of the company and its his job to make sure that the shareholders are happy. Now when you have a company where everyone wants to be the CEO-surely one can see how the recipe for disaster starts to boil up. Being human and having inherited adam and eve's blood- many people have developed their own twists on the above-So you have men behaving recklessly and without respect because they are men-and woman thinking they can have the final say because they pay the bills. Thankfully,the Bible again points at Jesus as the perfect Leader who led by service. Privileges and responsibilities go hand in hand..
In my rather short time on this earth-I don't pretend to have the answers, all I can say is that I have a Manual. And I'll follow it blindly-because all the answers to "Who am I?" are in there. I'm an ambitious young girl-I want the best that life has to give and will strive endlessly to be the best. But I'm also female and thankfully can and will choose carefully who my lifelong CEO will be. God will have to govern that decision cos the effects are irreversible. However, I also pray that I respect his rights as a leader and I help make the decision making process that much easier. Probably won't be easy and I don't expect the ride to start off smoothly-but like any merger; companies ,human beings, personalities, composites, etc-One can anticipate problems and will have to work hard to extract synergies and achieve the pre-envisioned "value add" that made the whole process appear worthwhile in the first place. People can learn a lot from analysing how and what makes a company run. We are like individual companies, have our own tenets and procedures. Merging with someone else which often is more like an acquisition instead of a "true merger" can often be complex and should not be taken lightly. Investment bankers work all night trying to analyse if companies will be a true fit. Surely, marriage requires even more attention. Perhaps, we all have another reason to enrol on that MBA?
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Underlying...
Life'll always be a struggle..you must remember
My inner eye will always criticize me..to my discomfort
In a struggle to attain perfection, will I miss out on the people and things that matter the most?
Who are the people that matter the most?
What are that things that matter the most?
As Life moves on..and we face the inevitable..
Is it realistic that anyone guy will take me for better or WORSE?
Therein lies the problem...
As seasonal and erratic as my patterns are.
I admit that I ponder and maybe worry.
What happens when we become routine and the little quirks of our characters begin to magnify and plague the space around us?
I'm scared..
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.
Emotional volatility is a weird concept.
Almost as certain as change.
People will get hurt..
And its human to protect oneself
Which often results in hurting the ones that you care about(the most).
I think about God, Love and the Bible.
That's the only solution.
That's the key.
I can't trust myself not to hurt you
I can't trust you not to hurt me.
But if we both cling on to God and continue to plead for Grace.
That's the only way we'll have a chance.
I say I've never been heart broken but maybe because I've never let myself go.
People are sure to let you down.
Sometimes, I watch myself let another down.
Lord, I ask you to fill me with you.
Half the issues that plague us are buried in our subconsious.
I'll never be perfect,so Lord give me the Grace to accept that we are all soiled
And make me better, one day at a time.
As I manouevre my way around this journey I call life.
Lord, please help me forgive and FORGET those who hurt me
And please help others forgive and forget when I hurt them,
Change can be good.
Change can be bad
Change can be exciting
Change can be excruciating
Riding the waves is part of the process.
Father, grant us the serenity..
My inner eye will always criticize me..to my discomfort
In a struggle to attain perfection, will I miss out on the people and things that matter the most?
Who are the people that matter the most?
What are that things that matter the most?
As Life moves on..and we face the inevitable..
Is it realistic that anyone guy will take me for better or WORSE?
Therein lies the problem...
As seasonal and erratic as my patterns are.
I admit that I ponder and maybe worry.
What happens when we become routine and the little quirks of our characters begin to magnify and plague the space around us?
I'm scared..
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.
Emotional volatility is a weird concept.
Almost as certain as change.
People will get hurt..
And its human to protect oneself
Which often results in hurting the ones that you care about(the most).
I think about God, Love and the Bible.
That's the only solution.
That's the key.
I can't trust myself not to hurt you
I can't trust you not to hurt me.
But if we both cling on to God and continue to plead for Grace.
That's the only way we'll have a chance.
I say I've never been heart broken but maybe because I've never let myself go.
People are sure to let you down.
Sometimes, I watch myself let another down.
Lord, I ask you to fill me with you.
Half the issues that plague us are buried in our subconsious.
I'll never be perfect,so Lord give me the Grace to accept that we are all soiled
And make me better, one day at a time.
As I manouevre my way around this journey I call life.
Lord, please help me forgive and FORGET those who hurt me
And please help others forgive and forget when I hurt them,
Change can be good.
Change can be bad
Change can be exciting
Change can be excruciating
Riding the waves is part of the process.
Father, grant us the serenity..
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Thursday, October 05, 2006
History Repeats Itself
I'm reading this book on "Technical Analysis of the Financial Markets" and I came across one of the major presumptions behind tech. analysis: History repeats itself-the key to understanding the future lies in a study of he past.Human pyschology tends not to change..
But what happens If we have no knowledge of the past..
The future is merely a repetition of the past-Thank God for the Bible.
But what happens If we have no knowledge of the past..
The future is merely a repetition of the past-Thank God for the Bible.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
On Timing...
It just hit me that Timing is Everything..
I've read it in the Bible many times but don't think I ever got it.
The wrong idea at the wrong time just will not work
Eating the wrong things at the wrong times- Absolute disaster
The wrong bar on the wrong day- Social nightmare
The wrong job at the wrong time- Career Limiting move
The wrong guy at the wrong time- Emotional Rollercoaster
The right guy at the wrong time- What a waste?
The wrong guy at the right time- Semi-permanent damage.
The permutations are endless..One minute later and your miracle would have strolled past you.
How can anyone leave anything to chance? The iterations are programme-boggling..
Nah, just can't take the chance.Thanks God for God and the way He directs our path.
Mind Boggling? Wonder how many life changing miracles I've strolled past in disobedience?
I won't even start...!!!
I've read it in the Bible many times but don't think I ever got it.
The wrong idea at the wrong time just will not work
Eating the wrong things at the wrong times- Absolute disaster
The wrong bar on the wrong day- Social nightmare
The wrong job at the wrong time- Career Limiting move
The wrong guy at the wrong time- Emotional Rollercoaster
The right guy at the wrong time- What a waste?
The wrong guy at the right time- Semi-permanent damage.
The permutations are endless..One minute later and your miracle would have strolled past you.
How can anyone leave anything to chance? The iterations are programme-boggling..
Nah, just can't take the chance.Thanks God for God and the way He directs our path.
Mind Boggling? Wonder how many life changing miracles I've strolled past in disobedience?
I won't even start...!!!
BOLL..Pre-exam rambles..Any excuse to promote incoherency..
Today or so far at least has been one of those days when I'm Bullish on Life(BOL) but I can feel something in the back of my mind gnawing away at me like something 's wrong.I'm desperately seeking a panacea but I'm quickly running out of options. I have this exam today and I pray I do well..That'll obviously go a long way in relaxing the muscles that are tightening in my belly..I'm generally never stressed about exams but this one is irritating cos it's not all that intuitive..Learning random things can be such a bore.Besides, when this is under my belt..I immediately graduate to new level and really the there's no glass ceiling..
I also hope I'm not using this exam as an excuse for something else that is bothering me, but I'll see come 7pm tonight..
Amazing how God continues to touch up His masterpiece that is my life..I'm always left wondering what's happening next.It's amazing to wake up and fall in love with Him again and again..
I can only contemplate and probably don't understand what it means to love Him with your heart and soul- But I sure plan to give it a try.I read a chapter in his Book today that literally gave me butterflies in my stomach..Almost like a massage coming from the Master Himself..He always knows what I need to hear and when I need to hear it..
I can't say that I fully understanmd what's going on in my head or my heart but I know about eagle's wings so no point stressing it..
I guess I did ask Him to sort out my head and my heart...I can only truly achieve my Destiny if I defenestrate all the "I" in me and trust with absolutely EVERYTHING..
Lol..That sort of makes me laugh because it's sure more difficult than it sounds..Then, I'm reminded that everything he's promised is within my reach..
Just need to learn to love him with All my heart and soul.In a world where we're increasing learning to use and trust our heads..all I ask for is Grace..
Anyway, mid-revision rambling definitely hepls clear one's head out.lol.Sometimes, its just great to write as one thinks..Who makes the rules anyway?
Anyway, I'm Bullish on Life and Love and all the Great and Amazing things that'll come with it..
I can't see the future but all I can do is capture the past so that I can look back and smile..
BOLL...Always....................x
I also hope I'm not using this exam as an excuse for something else that is bothering me, but I'll see come 7pm tonight..
Amazing how God continues to touch up His masterpiece that is my life..I'm always left wondering what's happening next.It's amazing to wake up and fall in love with Him again and again..
I can only contemplate and probably don't understand what it means to love Him with your heart and soul- But I sure plan to give it a try.I read a chapter in his Book today that literally gave me butterflies in my stomach..Almost like a massage coming from the Master Himself..He always knows what I need to hear and when I need to hear it..
I can't say that I fully understanmd what's going on in my head or my heart but I know about eagle's wings so no point stressing it..
I guess I did ask Him to sort out my head and my heart...I can only truly achieve my Destiny if I defenestrate all the "I" in me and trust with absolutely EVERYTHING..
Lol..That sort of makes me laugh because it's sure more difficult than it sounds..Then, I'm reminded that everything he's promised is within my reach..
Just need to learn to love him with All my heart and soul.In a world where we're increasing learning to use and trust our heads..all I ask for is Grace..
Anyway, mid-revision rambling definitely hepls clear one's head out.lol.Sometimes, its just great to write as one thinks..Who makes the rules anyway?
Anyway, I'm Bullish on Life and Love and all the Great and Amazing things that'll come with it..
I can't see the future but all I can do is capture the past so that I can look back and smile..
BOLL...Always....................x
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Human Nature- Ironical?
So, for the last few days, some us have been utterly transfixed by the realgist blog. Personally, ,I think it has been one of those experiments that expose the contradicting faces of human nature..Most of the stuff on there was vile, people's parents were even brought into it..The characters were taken apart and discredited with every line the "editors" spun.On the part of the more than willing audience, we didn't do anything to dis-popularise the site. Even those shouting "foul" "foul" "foul" have to admit that they logged onto that site more than once. Surely, if we really belong on the moral high-ground that we steadfastlly claim to stand one..We'd have only spared one peek..I think sometimes there are discrepancies between who we really are and who we actually think we are! Comment after comment slandered and cursed the unadmittedly devious writers but surely most of us have to take responsibility for the part we played in making the site the raving success that it was..
Bad news travels fast..Bad Gossip travels even faster..and the worst thing about it is..We all love it..As long as it has nothing to do with us..
I didn't agree with the concept of the blog but I was too human to leave a chastising message- After all, I had to ponder the indiscretion of my fingers who frequently crept back to the site to read the latest update.
The internet can be an ugly place..Bad gossip can be very entertaining.as long as it doesn't happen to YOU..!
Bad news travels fast..Bad Gossip travels even faster..and the worst thing about it is..We all love it..As long as it has nothing to do with us..
I didn't agree with the concept of the blog but I was too human to leave a chastising message- After all, I had to ponder the indiscretion of my fingers who frequently crept back to the site to read the latest update.
The internet can be an ugly place..Bad gossip can be very entertaining.as long as it doesn't happen to YOU..!
Monday, September 11, 2006
Monday Blues..
After a weekend of serenading, imagine my irritation at having to spend the whole day in an Options pricing class..I wish the lecturer was a tad bit interesting..I just hope I learnt enough to pull off that I attended the course..Good news- Day one is over. Bad news- Three more days to go..
Also found out that there's a Nigerian buka-on -wheels @ Liverpool Street. I had J-rice,fish, plantain and beef..(weird but true). All of this cost me 5 quid..Not bad I must admit..But considering that carbs are bad for you..I doubt If I'm going to be one of her loyal customers..So I'm standing in the queue and a blonde petite girl walks up to Madam Buka and asks her if she sells Thai food? I'm like "try reading the signs"..I guess some people just think that anything post-English pretty much tastes the same..The woman should have sold her some hot efo and ewedu plus amala..And I'm sure she'll never forget the difference..
Anyway, for a second today..I don't think I was very Bullish on Life but all it took was a quick reminder and I'm back on track..
I'm off to a Thai restaurant..I hope don't get served efo when I sit down to dine.lol
Also found out that there's a Nigerian buka-on -wheels @ Liverpool Street. I had J-rice,fish, plantain and beef..(weird but true). All of this cost me 5 quid..Not bad I must admit..But considering that carbs are bad for you..I doubt If I'm going to be one of her loyal customers..So I'm standing in the queue and a blonde petite girl walks up to Madam Buka and asks her if she sells Thai food? I'm like "try reading the signs"..I guess some people just think that anything post-English pretty much tastes the same..The woman should have sold her some hot efo and ewedu plus amala..And I'm sure she'll never forget the difference..
Anyway, for a second today..I don't think I was very Bullish on Life but all it took was a quick reminder and I'm back on track..
I'm off to a Thai restaurant..I hope don't get served efo when I sit down to dine.lol
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
RBOARF.......
The weirdest things happen to the simplest people, or so I like to think..
The last two weeks have been mad in so many ways, so I thank you for building this bridge
SA really isn't all that far..
So I guess I'l be seeing you soon..lol
There's probably so much I'd love to write
But for the sake of simplicity I'll say
Thanks for coming the extra mile(or 3000 miles as the case may be)
Fly Safe...
The last two weeks have been mad in so many ways, so I thank you for building this bridge
SA really isn't all that far..
So I guess I'l be seeing you soon..lol
There's probably so much I'd love to write
But for the sake of simplicity I'll say
Thanks for coming the extra mile(or 3000 miles as the case may be)
Fly Safe...
BOL...
So I've abandoned my blog as I do..now and again..What can I say? I've been busy..
Moving on, I'm back at work and I'm ready to take the bull by the horns..
Every now and again, we all resort to making resolutions which we often do not stick to.
Well, this time I've decided to adhere to the rather abridged resolutions I've now set for myself.
As with most of these things, you need to work towards a goal..and therefore need to define what success will mean in that space..
Another year is coming to an end.Where on earth is time flying to?
Last time I checked I was a toddler..lol
I'm bullish on Life and Love and all the Little things that we all take for granted.
God's an artist, so I just love to watch him painting the masterpiece that is my life.
Thats the sole factor that gives method to m madness..
Moving on, I'm back at work and I'm ready to take the bull by the horns..
Every now and again, we all resort to making resolutions which we often do not stick to.
Well, this time I've decided to adhere to the rather abridged resolutions I've now set for myself.
As with most of these things, you need to work towards a goal..and therefore need to define what success will mean in that space..
Another year is coming to an end.Where on earth is time flying to?
Last time I checked I was a toddler..lol
I'm bullish on Life and Love and all the Little things that we all take for granted.
God's an artist, so I just love to watch him painting the masterpiece that is my life.
Thats the sole factor that gives method to m madness..
Friday, August 25, 2006
Pre-birthdayocratic yarns
It's my birthday tomorrow..Try as I may, I can never take the onslaught of this day unseriously enough..I'm always expectant..After all, God decided on that day xxxxx years ago, life as I knew it would change..So I celebrate in the knowledge that He has kept me through another year, filling me with purpose.August is an amazing month to be born in, and you just have to be one of us to understand..
My yardstick for success and happiness is obviously very different from the next mans' but I thank God because he always shows Grace and comes through for me.Funny though that I still remember my tenth birthday with so much clarity.It's intriguing to think about the concept of time and how we can't do anything to slow or quicken its pace..The day will tick away regardless of your mood..In a way, knowing this is almost soothing in itself...One hour will always be sixty minutes which will always be sixty seconds..
Life isn't that consistent..In fact, we've always heard that the only thing constant in life is change.So sometimes I like to focus and enjoy who I am today, harbouring at the back of mind that this will truly affect what I am tomorrow.How? I might not know. But lets just say a dog will never give birth to cats..
Thing is some people think they can only trust themselves..I say you can only trust God because when push comes to shove..even you can disappoint "you"..
Another birthday is going to come and go..I have no idea where I'll be this time next year..All I know is that regret-free, I'll look back and smile..because everyday was part if the process..
Friends come, friends go..Hearts break and mend again..the clock ticks steadfastly away..and Ify will continue to surprise herself and those who care to indulge..
My yardstick for success and happiness is obviously very different from the next mans' but I thank God because he always shows Grace and comes through for me.Funny though that I still remember my tenth birthday with so much clarity.It's intriguing to think about the concept of time and how we can't do anything to slow or quicken its pace..The day will tick away regardless of your mood..In a way, knowing this is almost soothing in itself...One hour will always be sixty minutes which will always be sixty seconds..
Life isn't that consistent..In fact, we've always heard that the only thing constant in life is change.So sometimes I like to focus and enjoy who I am today, harbouring at the back of mind that this will truly affect what I am tomorrow.How? I might not know. But lets just say a dog will never give birth to cats..
Thing is some people think they can only trust themselves..I say you can only trust God because when push comes to shove..even you can disappoint "you"..
Another birthday is going to come and go..I have no idea where I'll be this time next year..All I know is that regret-free, I'll look back and smile..because everyday was part if the process..
Friends come, friends go..Hearts break and mend again..the clock ticks steadfastly away..and Ify will continue to surprise herself and those who care to indulge..
Random- it ain't all bad...
Life has a way of throwing things at you...thats why we have to remain hooked to God...Sometimes, when I get a rather pleasant surprise..I can't help but smile..God is Good..
Random happenings aren't always so bad...You just have to keep your head up..otherwise you might miss the moment when that rather random stranger might be looking your way...
Here's to Random happenings and Random moments shared in the most Random of places..
You're Perfect...Almost...lol
Random happenings aren't always so bad...You just have to keep your head up..otherwise you might miss the moment when that rather random stranger might be looking your way...
Here's to Random happenings and Random moments shared in the most Random of places..
You're Perfect...Almost...lol
Friday, August 18, 2006
Act One, Scene Two
Its been almost two months since I hung up my corporate suit..
Today will be my last day off..
The summer is officially over
Monday will mark the beginning of a new era..
All I ask is God's Grace..
With him looking down on me..
World domination is imminent..
Today will be my last day off..
The summer is officially over
Monday will mark the beginning of a new era..
All I ask is God's Grace..
With him looking down on me..
World domination is imminent..
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Postcript
I guess Romance is not dead after all...How would else would you describe his understate gesture to brace the cold just because she couldn't be warm???
C'est tres interessant...(Pardon my French)
C'est tres interessant...(Pardon my French)
Who moved my Cheese?
As another summer draws to a close, I can't help but wonder what this years' souveneirs will be..I've had countless conversations along the lines of "Do you remember the summer when we did...or when they..or when we went.."These precious keepsakes are undoubtedly as important as the sunshine itself.Admittedly, these welcome souveneirs are decreasing at an alarming rate..I'm sure not looking forward to the phase when one summer is just like another..Euwww..sends shivers down by spine just to think about it..
In all fairness, this summer, albeit in a different way, has been very important in its own way..So I suspect when I flip back the history books, this summer will definitely stand its ground in the charts..2002 has probably been the most memorable summer for me, till date ;-)
Anyway, as I look into the not too distant future, I admit that I will have to fight to make my summers count...Trips abroad, sightseeing on London tour buses..whatever..I just won't let this inertia gripping environment take me down with it..You know?
I just don't understand folks that don't travel and don't like Music..(As I speak I'm watching Lick classics on MTV base...some of the songs are taking me back a few summers..Music happens to provide some of the best souvenirs of summers well spent)..
Isn't it weird how some people just vanish from your life? Even weirder how sometimes we don't even notice that these people have gone down under until their name comes up in conversation randomly..Just bizarre how one era ends and another one begins and we just don't know..Can you ascertain the exact moment when you fell in love with Mr or Ms X? Looking back, can you tell when you fell out of love with your ex? Hmm, obviously assuming that you've moved on.Some people still reside in the past..
Life just seems to move on with or without our permission..Summers come and go..Years come and go..Partners come and go as do Friends...All we can do is seize and enjoy the moments so we can look back and smile..On this journey called life, all we can do is make sure we keep on top of the game..Prob a bit calculating..but I sure hope I outgrow more people than outgrow me..It's almost a race..But as long as you know God has your back..you don't have to worry..The race is not always to the swift..
Change is the only element thats constant..so we have to embrace it..Building castles one brick at a time..
Life's what we make of it...It's a beautiful thing...
In all fairness, this summer, albeit in a different way, has been very important in its own way..So I suspect when I flip back the history books, this summer will definitely stand its ground in the charts..2002 has probably been the most memorable summer for me, till date ;-)
Anyway, as I look into the not too distant future, I admit that I will have to fight to make my summers count...Trips abroad, sightseeing on London tour buses..whatever..I just won't let this inertia gripping environment take me down with it..You know?
I just don't understand folks that don't travel and don't like Music..(As I speak I'm watching Lick classics on MTV base...some of the songs are taking me back a few summers..Music happens to provide some of the best souvenirs of summers well spent)..
Isn't it weird how some people just vanish from your life? Even weirder how sometimes we don't even notice that these people have gone down under until their name comes up in conversation randomly..Just bizarre how one era ends and another one begins and we just don't know..Can you ascertain the exact moment when you fell in love with Mr or Ms X? Looking back, can you tell when you fell out of love with your ex? Hmm, obviously assuming that you've moved on.Some people still reside in the past..
Life just seems to move on with or without our permission..Summers come and go..Years come and go..Partners come and go as do Friends...All we can do is seize and enjoy the moments so we can look back and smile..On this journey called life, all we can do is make sure we keep on top of the game..Prob a bit calculating..but I sure hope I outgrow more people than outgrow me..It's almost a race..But as long as you know God has your back..you don't have to worry..The race is not always to the swift..
Change is the only element thats constant..so we have to embrace it..Building castles one brick at a time..
Life's what we make of it...It's a beautiful thing...
Monday, August 14, 2006
M&M's
So,half way through a purely rhetorical conversation about men, my Cameroonian friend(who shall remain nameless) comments that she doesn't understand why Nigerians are so obsessed about Money an Marriage(in that order)..This made me laugh, although I couldn't help thinking that there was some truth to the rather random statement!
Apparently, she does not understand why Nigerian men are always full of giant ideas. They have huge ideas and think they can go from paupers to princes in one swift move.Before I had the chance to fully rumminate these comments, she admitted that she did want to move back home- to a big house with a swimming pool..Hmm, so I thought, so maybe its not only the Nigerians who dream big?
Whats a man or woman for that matter without dreams? hopes? etcetera, etcetera....But my question is "When can you identify a dreamer as just that, and nothing more" 32? 35? 38? At what age can you look at a man and say to him..wake up and get a job, you're never going to be president!Well, at least not if you carry on down this path...Most women like security so admittedly, its quite bizarre to handle a 32 year old with zero track record but a head full of lofty ideas.You've never had a job, you didn't do well at school, ok you talk the talk, but when do you start walking the walk...??
In the perfect world, a man with dreams would be perfect companion because every great idea started from a simple dream.But who really wants to get stuffed with a truck full of dreams when there are bills to be paid.?
Anyway, on to this issue of the M&M's..Marriage and Money...
Actually, I'm on the phone with Goose..I'll finish it later!
Apparently, she does not understand why Nigerian men are always full of giant ideas. They have huge ideas and think they can go from paupers to princes in one swift move.Before I had the chance to fully rumminate these comments, she admitted that she did want to move back home- to a big house with a swimming pool..Hmm, so I thought, so maybe its not only the Nigerians who dream big?
Whats a man or woman for that matter without dreams? hopes? etcetera, etcetera....But my question is "When can you identify a dreamer as just that, and nothing more" 32? 35? 38? At what age can you look at a man and say to him..wake up and get a job, you're never going to be president!Well, at least not if you carry on down this path...Most women like security so admittedly, its quite bizarre to handle a 32 year old with zero track record but a head full of lofty ideas.You've never had a job, you didn't do well at school, ok you talk the talk, but when do you start walking the walk...??
In the perfect world, a man with dreams would be perfect companion because every great idea started from a simple dream.But who really wants to get stuffed with a truck full of dreams when there are bills to be paid.?
Anyway, on to this issue of the M&M's..Marriage and Money...
Actually, I'm on the phone with Goose..I'll finish it later!
.............
A certain someone I know signs their e-mails as follows:
"It may take you forever to arrive at the place you long to get to, but no one will remember that once you do".
For some bizarre reason, everything time I receive an e-mail from him, I linger a little while on this line, even though I've seen it quite a few times..
She smiles...
"It may take you forever to arrive at the place you long to get to, but no one will remember that once you do".
For some bizarre reason, everything time I receive an e-mail from him, I linger a little while on this line, even though I've seen it quite a few times..
She smiles...
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